It's been a good 2 months since I last blog. Sort of just lost the urge to write about things. While this period was meant to be a time to mug really hard for my exams, I have practically wasted it. I do not know why but I have become really nua since I came UK for my studies. Days are spent downloading and watching movies instead of studying hard. Evidence is my 500gb hard disk is running out of space!

I can't seem to find the motivation that I once had while in NTU. WHERE ARE YOU?!?!?!

Tomorrow is my second paper and again I don't feel prepared. I am conceptually so weak with derivatives, and being lazy to put in the effort to understand it, I decided to focused my efforts on a few topics which have been repeated in past year papers in the hope that they will come out this year too. I am really praying so very hard!

My first paper was quite a disaster too. Was forced to choose a question where I did not know how to do half the question. Came out with a really bad feeling that I din't do well and that my aim of a distinction is practically down the drain. It was the worst paper I have taken in a long long time, demoralising and tortourous.

I guess it's true. Hard work is rewarded, and I have definitely not worked hard enough to deserve good results. Can only hope I find my motivation for my next few papers. I still have time to make a difference to my results! (or so I hope)